A short story by Ami Nurul Islamiyah

HAPPY WITH YOU

By Ami Nurul Islamiyah

2130911005

 

Today I woke up in the morning as usual. I am so looking forward to the big day that will soon come my way. The big day is not today but today is D-1 and I’m so excited now. I got out of bed and rushed to the bathroom.

Drakkkk…

I seemed too excited and not pay attention to my surroundings. So that what happened next was easy to guess, yes, I slipped. Luckily only a minor bump. I was getting ready for having morning class when my mother called.

"Alina, do you wanna bring something to eat?" my mom asked.

"I just wanna bring the rice, mom, I'll buy the side dishes later on campus, I'm in a bit of a hurry today," I replied.

Then I went to get the rice in the lunch box. After that, I immediately said goodbye. I left quite in a hurry even though I wasn't late but I wanted to have some time to rest in class before it started.

*****

"Good morning everyone," said Mr. Raynald who greeted his students cheerfully.

"Good morning Sir," answered the students.

The morning class of the Entrepreneurship course went seriously and smoothly with so much discussion that finally it was 8.40 am which signaled the end of the class.

"Alright everyone, maybe that's it for today. We will continue with the next material next week by groups 5 and 6, "said Mr. Raynald as the class ended.

"Okay sir. Thank you," answered the students.

After Mr. Raynald left the class, my best friend Fanny immediately approached me

"Lin, let's have breakfast first while waiting meeting time for the FYD celebration tomorrow," asked Fanny.

"Come on, I haven't had breakfast yet. But I brought the rice, I just bought the side dishes," I answered.

*****

We enjoyed our breakfast voraciously, after that we rushed to the auditorium where the event was held. I serve as the coordinator of the guest star who will attend at the event. Today is a rehearsal day for all those who will appear including guest stars because my event is one of the biggest events and is quite popular with so many people that it is attended by the governor.

I am so enthusiastic about one of the guest stars who will appear. The guitarist for the band TRACE was someone I really liked in high school. I never thought he was in the same campus with me. He's really good at playing the guitar, he also has a good voice when he sings, and as far as I remember he's an active person in organizations so it's no wonder he's known by all the teachers. Not only that, he's also quite popular I think it's only natural that many people like him. How not a man who is tall, handsome, and has a good voice with many skills, of course, women will go crazy over him, including me. But it seems he won't recognize me because many women approached him at that time.

Until now I still wonder why I didn't know that we were on the same campus, even I am now in 3^rd semester and he is in 5^th semester. I had lost focus when I thought about it until I realized he was approaching me and asking me.

"Hello, good afternoon. I'm Zalka the leader of the TRACE band and this is our band member. Nice too meet you,” he said, as I suspected he didn't know me.

"Ah sorry, good afternoon. Yes, that's right, let me introduce myself again. I am Alina Adinda Kirana as the coordinator of this FYD guest star celebration. Nice to meet you too. Let me take you to the waiting room," I said with a trembling heart.

With an unruly heart, I took him to the waiting room and then again checked the presence of the other guest stars in the hope that all of them were present exactly as stated.

*****

The rehearsal has ended with the performance of TRACE. When he got off the stage he came over to me while his friends returned to the waiting room, I also looked at him.

"If I'm not mistaken, we went to the same school when we were in high school? You were the one who took part in the science competition, right?” Zalka asked.

I was so surprised and couldn't hide the surprise because he actually knew me

"Oh yes, you're right. I'm a bit surprised that you know about me."

"Um, I actually know quite a lot about you, but you don't realize it. I'll go first, okay, we'll talk later," he continued while leaving with a smile.

"Oh my God what's wrong with me today, a lot of unusual things happened. Even the people I like know me. It's a day that makes my heart unhealthy," I said in a heart that felt like it was being shaken.

*****

At 4 am I woke up, cleaned my bed, and immediately rushed to take a shower and then pray the dawn. Not to forget, I prepared provisions for the big day that I was looking forward to and went to my campus at 5 am when the sky was still so dark but I was so cheerful.

Today I'm quite busy and can't interact with him much. It's really a shame that the long-awaited day turned out to be a day of little interaction.

Like when TRACE's rehearsal yesterday as the closing guest star of the event and they put on an extraordinary performance and attracted the interest and enthusiasm of the audience present today. Of course, we, the committees, were very happy because the event ran smoothly without any complicated problems, there were only a few small problems that would always be present in an activity.

Now came the time when he and his friends had to leave. They said goodbye to the others and of course to me. He also approached me maybe to say goodbye but apparently he said something else

“Good job Lin, we are so happy with today's event. Lets eat together sometime. Sorry I'll say goodbye first, see you later," said the tall man with his deep voice.

"Okay. Bye," I replied with a smile and he walked away waving his hand.

I don't know why I'm so happy

"Arrgghhh damn I'm starting to lose focus again because I'm too happy, one sentence he invited me to eat even though it could just be small talk. The proof is that we are on the same campus in a year, but we met today, come on, Lin, don't expect too much," I said to myself as I walked towards the back stage..

*****

Day after day I returned to my usual days of studying from morning to evening and did not forget that I was also bombarded with tasks that seemed impossible to stay away from. And luckily that day I realized quickly so as not to be carried away by the man's words. Because it's been a month since the event, we actually started exchanging messages, but not very often but enough to make me happy and stupidly I still remember it. And until now I don't know what major he's from, but I'm too shy to ask.

Today I am not in class because the lecturer who teaches is on service abroad and he was given an assignment consisting of a large family for us. Yes, that's right, a large family is led by a paragraph of command that has children to grandchildren. When I was waiting for Fanny in the park near the cafeteria, and suddenly a woman I didn't know came up to me saying

"Are you Alina from the 3rd semester of English Literature, right?" asked a woman who looked like an upperclassman from another major.

"Yes, I'm Alina, what's wrong?" I answered in confusion.

"Oh thank goodness I wasn't wrong. Hi, I'm Nancy from the Department of Business Management, Zalka's classmate and one of TRACE's vocalists. I'm really curious about you because Zalka has been talking about you since the band performed at the celebration, unfortunately I didn't appear, but they said it was very fun and our leader kept talking about the coordinator of the guest stars," said Nancy with a little laugh.

"But now I understand, no wonder he keeps talking about Alina Alina Alina, he just knows which girls are beautiful. Oh yeah maybe you don't remember me? We are also in the same high school, I was in the same class with Zalka," she continued.

The woman made me wonder and she spoke at such length that I didn't even have a chance to speak. And endlessly as if boasting that he is so familiar with Zalka.

"Oh, hello. Sorry I didn't know you. But before that, do you have something to say for me?” I replied, still confused by his sudden presence.

"It's okay, I don’t have something serious to you, I'm just curious about you. And I happened to be passing by and saw you, then I'll say goodbye because I have a performance schedule at the cafe behind the campus, if you have free time, you can go there, Zalka too," he added with a smile and hurried off.

She left so fast I didn't have time to answer. Then I remembered that there I was waiting for my best friend.

"Where's Fanny, it's been so long."

"And why did Nancy meet me, huh? Is it true that Zalka is talking about me? That's enough. But I'm curious and wanna see Zalka, but unfortunately I have other appointments. And finally indirectly I know what major he is, "I added, suddenly monologue. Then I saw my best friend

“FANNYYY QUICKLY IT'S TOO LATE!!!” I shouted when I saw Fanny from afar.

"Sorry, sorry, I had a stomach ache and in the canteen the queue was really bad, like I wanted to get groceries," he answered as he ran and breathed heavily.

"Well, calm down first, then we'll go," I replied.

*****

After that we went to the cafe which will be our place to do our assignments but I don't know where it is because I didn't ask and then just said yes and yes I will just follow Fanny wherever she goes. But what happened was unexpected and I never thought that Fanny was walking towards the back gate of the campus and it turned out that our destination café was the same cafe as Nancy's said. My feelings started to go wild between the joys of meeting the person I was waiting for but I was afraid that he would think I was there to meet him because Nancy could have told him.

We entered the café and headed straight for Nathalie, Fajar, and Dzaki. I walked straight looking at my friends without glancing here and there I was afraid I would lose focus again. And I immediately sat next to Dzaki.

"Where have you been for so long, we've been waiting a long time, see that our drinks are about to run out," said Nathalie, who looked tired of waiting.

"Yes, the feeling from campus here is 15 minutes at the most." continued Dzaki.

"You know, Fanny, she's been taking a long time, I've been waiting till I’m bored," I said.

"Sorry, sorry guys, the canteen was really queuing up, dude, I was queuing for groceries," said Fanny.

"Btw, Alina who is the woman talked with you before I came?" added Fanny as we sat down on the chairs and started to get things out.

"Ahhh that's… (ting tong) wait a minute" I stopped when I saw the shocking message notification.

Zalka sent a photo with the message “Seriously, her face is smiling a little bit.”

Suddenly I immediately looked for her whereabouts and she was in the right corner of the stage which seemed to be preparing to perform. Then he waved and smiled at me and he texted again

"Then don't go home yet, wait for me first."

I also subconsciously smiled and nodded while looking at him earlier then suddenly

"Hey Lin, who is that, you're really excited when you get a chat, is that your crush?" asked Fajar enthusiastically.

"What the hell Jar, don't be weird, it's nobody. Come on, let's assign the deadline soon," I replied and immediately changed the topic.

I focused on my job at that time and occasionally we took a break and watched the performance of the band TRACE at the café. I'm grateful that my focus is on the task not on him.

*****

After 1 hour finally our task was finished and we were ready to go home and I told them to go home first because I had other to do. At that time Fajar looked suspiciously at me but he didn't say much. The members of the TRACE band had already left, except for Zalka and Nancy. I didn't see them leave the cafe. But because I had promised, I ended up waiting for him outside the café. After 15 minutes of waiting, Zalka and Nancy were seen leaving the café together and Nancy left first.

"Good bye. guys. See you next time Alina," said Nancy.

"Okay, bye. Remember tomorrow's practice, don't go out with your boy," continued Zalka.

"Yeah, yeah, you're really fussy," said Nancy.

I find it strange to myself why I'm so easily surprised today. Luckily I have a healthy heart. I was surprised that Nancy greeted me and that she already had a boyfriend.

"How are you Lin? I want to say something," asked Zalka.

"Erm not bad. Okey." I answered.

"You wait here for a moment, I'll take my car first," continued Zalka and went to the parking lot.

*****

Now we arrive at a Sushi restaurant which is quite famous and crowded. While in the car we didn't talk much because he had to answer his friend's call and I continued my unfinished task. There we ordered some sushi while waiting for the sushi to come we finally chatted

“Lin… Actually I forgot to tell you that time. I'm so happy to have met you. Maybe you don't realize it, but I've known you since high school but I don't have the confidence to move forward, and I'm very grateful since I knew we were in the same campus and it turned out that you were the committee of the celebration yesterday. Ah, one more thing, about Nancy, you met her on campus, right? I’m so sorry about her, she is like that every time. Ahhh, I said too much," Zalka explained at length with an expression that looked guilty.

I smiled widely because I felt his funny attitude and was also happy for his confession. I paused for a moment and answered

"It's okay, I know why you must be busy with your college and the band. I don't think you need to feel that way about me. Honestly, I didn't think that you even knew that we were in the same campus, even though all this time I was curious about where you were going to study. But my curiosity has paid off," I continued regarding his statement.

*****

"It's been a really nice day and I'm finally back in my bed," I mumbled.

"I didn't expect us to talk so much about each other. I feel we are showing interest in each other and we are like people who let go of longing hahaha even though we were just watching from afar and we both didn't know." I said.

*****

Time by time, day by day our relationship is getting closer until we are now in a relationship. Yes, this is our 2nd month of dating, the times we spent beautifully and understood each other, we even helped each other in doing assignments even though our majors were not related at all. But who would have thought we shared ideas for this.

Today is exactly our 2nd month, unfortunately we can't meet because he is out of town with his band members. I'm sad, but what can I do for him trying to chase his dream.

The time shows at 7.00 am now, which means I have to go to campus because there is a Structure III class today. Before I left, someone rang the bell when I was about to leave so I might as well open it.

"Yeah, just a minute," I answered so that the person who pressed the bell would know that someone was home.

When I open the door

“Wh….o, HUH? ZALKA??” I was surprised to see the person I miss was at my doorstep.

"Wait a minute, why are you here? Aren't you coming home tomorrow? Isn't there an additional performance?" I asked who was feeling happy but still amazed.

"Hahaha, I’m sorry, yesterday I actually lied, because I want to give you a surprise today. Happy 2 months beautiful girl, I brought your favorite morning coffee. Well, consider it an apology because I'm so busy," he answered with a smile.

"Heyyy, that's how you learned to lie, but thank you for the coffee and happy 2 months," I replied, who was so happy and annoyed with him.

"Oh nooo. It's past 7 o'clock, I'm sorry but I have to leave now I have class, "I continued, starting to panic and afraid to be late.

"Why are you panicking like that? There's me who will escort you and that's what I came for this morning," he answered.

"Okey, thank you in advance, but can you say it while walking late, Zalkaaaa," I started to get a little annoyed because I was panicking.

He replied to me with a laugh. We rushed to his car and he took me to the front of the class. Luckily he drove faster and I wasn't late. We also have to separate for a while but you promised to eat together this afternoon.

*****

"Huh, where is Zalka? Why hasn't he come yet? I've been waiting a long time. The phone is also not active, previously didn't give any news either. Where are you? Or is there an urgent need? But, he will definitely chat me,” I muttered, nervous because Zalka didn't come.

In the end I ordered food because lunch time was almost past. I was still waiting for him while eating my food, but until my food was finished he didn't appear to come to the restaurant. I was nervous, worried, and annoyed at the same time because this was the second time he didn't come to an appointment without any news.

"Zalka, where are you? If he's not going to date, he should have told him first so I didn't have to wait for this from earlier. Even if I eat, I'll be alone, okay, I'll just go home anyways, what I’m doing here now, after all, I've eaten too" I said annoyed waiting for Zalka.

*****

2 days after that day he finally informed me that he was went to accompany with his lecturer on a visit to a place and there was no signal. Actually I can understand because he is also a teaching assistant but I'm still annoyed because he could have told me first when he was on his way to that place.

I ended up in a bad mood almost all day, my friends and I gathered together in the park and did our homework but it seemed that half of my soul was going somewhere until finally Nathalie patted me on the shoulder and said

"Heyy Lin, why have you been so quiet? It's not your boyfriend was gave you message, why are you still frowning, you're body without a soul, your body is with us, your soul, I don't know where."

"Yes, or do you have a problem? Lin, if there's anything you can tell us, you don't comment much, even though you usually talk a lot when you're on duty," added Dzaki.

"Sorry guys, I'm okay. I'm just not in the mood anymore. Come on, let's just continue with the assignment, are you miss me being fussy?" I answered.

"You're really confident, I'm regret to ask you," replied Nathalie and I started laughing at them.

After some time, Zalka came to me. He greeted my friends and asked me to talk for a while.

"Just take her, here too sullen. If the mood is back, then return her," said Fanny.

"What are you saying, Fan, the task isn't finished yet, you even told me to leave," I replied to Fanny.

"We'll talk later, I'm still on duty," I said to Zalka without looking at her.

However, my friends still dragged me away with Zalka. Why are they helping Zalka instead of helping me? Is their friend Zalka or me?

*****

We arrived at a cafe, he ordered my favorite drink and his favorite drink. Then he started talking

"Honey… I'm sorry I didn't tell you that day. It was really sudden and I had to get things ready that day. If you don't believe me ..." he said, who actually hadn't finished speaking but I cut him off because I didn't want to. He kept apologizing later just because I was too selfish.

"Ok ok, stop saying sorry, I know and I understand too. We don't have to worry about that anymore. But remember one thing, next time we have a meeting and you can't come, no matter how urgent it is, let me know so I don't have to wait for you to come or not. Next time I won't forgive you if you do that again, understand?" I answered.

 "And even though you are busy, don't forget to eat. We haven't seen you for a week, you're already thin." I continued.

Finally we made up and my mood slowly returned, but I couldn't longer with him because we left in the middle I was having a discussion with my group. And finally, I asked him to take me back to the park. After arriving at the park he immediately went home to rest.

*****

Today is October 23, a very special day for someone I love. Yep, today is Zalka's 21st birthday and it's his first birthday with me. Of course I prepared a special gift for him and can't wait to see him tonight. I've made reservations for a restaurant to celebrate his birthday and I hope it goes well.

“I have to hurry to campus so that I can say it directly, even though it's actually late at night, I've already done a video call, but it doesn't feel complete. Anyway, today we have to meet up, it's been 2 weeks we haven't seen each other." I muttered while getting ready.

*****

When I arrived at the campus I went to his classroom. However, I didn't see him in his class. I tried to contact him but it's not active. Subconsciously I started to worry, I finally tried to ask a classmate.

"Hi, have you seen Zalka?' I asked a man whose name I don't know.'

"He hasn't been to class for a few days," the man replied.

"Why didn't he come in?" I asked again.

"Why are you asking me, aren't you Zalka's girlfriend? How are you doing?" he replied.

"Emm .. thanks" I replied to the man.

Then I started to leave the class and try to find Nancy

"Where is Zalka? I also don't see Nancy anymore. Even though I don't really like it, but this time I hope Nancy knows where she is," I muttered to myself while looking for Nancy's sister.

Drak….. I collided with a man and his books fell then I helped him

"Oops, I'm sorry... Khaizur??? This is the book," I was surprised and grateful to finally meet one of Zalka's friends.

"Alina, I went to your class earlier but you weren't there. Btw where is Zalka? It's been a week since he didn't go to college, the phone wasn't active either, I went to his house and no one was there, the lecturers asked him. I'm worried because he's never been like this before. I also asked Nancy, she doesn't know where Zalka is," said a man named Khaizur which made me even more worried about Zalka.

"So you also don't know where Zalka is. I also don't know where he is, but last night we still had a video call but he said he was outside and we also rarely communicate lately, the last time we met was 2 weeks ago. And Sis Nancy, where have I been looking for her?" I answered anxiously.

"Sorry but are you guys having a problem?" ask Khaizur

"Oh yeah, Nancy is overseas, she's on leave from college, she said her family in Boston was seriously ill so she helped look after them." added him.

"No, we don’t have any problem. I think he's busy with his work so I don't ask much I'm afraid he'll be bothered. And I haven't seen Nancy for a long time," I replied.

"You don't have to worry, Lin, I'll try to find out what's wrong with him later. If there is any information, I will definitely let you know. And sorry I have to say goodbye because there will be class soon." he said trying to calm me down.

"Emm okay, I'm really sorry I'm disturbing you here and sorry I accidentally bumped into it earlier," I replied.

"Don't worry, bye." he replied while leaving.

*****

3 months have passed since the last time Zalka disappeared. The birthday surprise I planned failed. There is no news or clues about his actual whereabouts. Khaizur was also worried because his best friend disappeared without any news which could make him repeat all the courses this semester.

Khaizur and I kept on exchanging the latest news about Zalka which had not yet come to light. Often I don't focus on college because I'm so worried about it. I can't suspect it because every time we rarely see each other and when we meet again Zalka seems to lose weight. I was worried that he was actually sick but I didn't expect that to happen.

Now we have entered the semester break. Me, Khaizur, and Fanny plan to find out about Zalka again. I was so grateful and relied on Khaizur because he was able to get information about Zalka's relatives.

While searching, I routinely continue to send messages to Zalka even though since October 23, 2015 until now the message has never been received by him.

*****

It's now March 15, 2017, which was supposed to be the 2nd anniversary. But until now we don't know its whereabouts. All we know is a news that in 2015 they moved abroad but which country they are going to no one knows.

I'm currently in the final stage of college. I can't forget him but I'm not sure about our relationship. Can I still think of him as my boyfriend or does he even remember me? And I'm in a position that actually demands that I ignore it because soon I will graduate from college. And one more thing, besides Zalka, Nancy also disappeared. Khaizur is now busy with his work and we don't share information as often as we used to but we still exchange news.

*****

"Alina, you're still thinking about Zalka, he's been gone for years, there's no news that you still like him. You have now graduated Lin, he must also have a new girlfriend, maybe even married. It's better if you look for another man whose whereabouts are clear, for example Khaizur, he always helps you, maybe he is also interested in you," said my dad, who was tired of seeing me continue to look for Zalka's whereabouts.

"Daddy, why do you say that? Me and Khaizur are just friends and Khaizur is also Zalka's best friend, don't be weird, okay?" I replied in a slightly annoyed tone.

"Honey, I understand that you love Zalka so much. I knows Zalka is a good man, but see, you are the one who knows and feels the pain for yourself when Zalka leaves without news and his family actually moved abroad. It's a shame to hear that there are times when we really have to let go of someone we love, if we keep them, it will hurt you, honey," said my mom with full of concern.

“Mommy…..” and for the first time and in front of my parents I cried because of Zalka.

My mom started hugging me without a word and my dad patted my back gently so I could calm down. The dam that I built all this time finally collapsed because of mother's words that woke me up and I said

“Daddy, Mommy, maybe Zalka is no longer there for me and maybe someone else. I also know sooner or later I have to let go of Zalka. But Daddy, Mommy, I can't just let him go while I wonder why he left," I said to my parents.

"To be honest, I'm angry, I'm annoyed, I'm disappointed, I even want to feel like I hate Zalka. I also can't go on like this, I've tried, I've tried to forget him, let him go, try to open my heart but what happened? It makes me sick even more and I can't forget him. So Mom, Dad, please don't stop me from looking for Zalka, I promise, if next year there's still no news about Zalka, I'll let her go and I'll learn not to think about her all the time," I explained to my mom and dad.

"Okay dear, we will always wish the best for you. And remember, you still have us, don't keep it alone," said my daddy who was so worried about me.

We also strengthen each other and I feel additional energy from the support given by my parents.

*****

(Ting tong) the bell rang and I rushed to the door and opened it. Today is June 16, 2017, a woman who is very familiar but has just met again visited my house.

"NANCY?" I was so surprised that I immediately hugged him

"Come on in here, sit down for a while I'll get you a drink," I continued and went into the kitchen.

"Here's the drink, how are you? How do you know my home address? I'm very happy to meet you again," I continued, who was so enthusiastic, happy at the same time wondering and I was accompanied by my parents.

“Hahaha, slowly Lin and I also know what you want to ask. Okay I answered, my condition is very good because I met a beautiful girl who is now even more beautiful. How do I know your address is related to the thing you want to ask and also the purpose of my coming here, "he replied.

"You mean it's related to Zalka?" I asked, surprised and somehow starting to feel suspicious and sad.

“Yes, that's right, my presence here is related to Zalka and there are many things that I have been hiding for a long time that I actually want to tell you. And one more thing before we discuss Zalka, actually recently Khaizur also found out about what I was going to tell you and I said not to tell you, I want to say it directly because I am directly involved with Zalka. I want to ask you, do you still like Zalka?” her answer that finally asked me something that is now difficult for me to answer.

“Emmm.. I don't know how I feel now, the last time we met was 2 years ago and since then there has been no news at all. But obviously all this time I was so worried about him suddenly disappearing" I answered with a bit of hesitation.

“Okay, this is going to be long, and I hope you listen until I'm done before you can ask. I can't force you not to be angry and not hate Zalka, but you also can't completely blame Zalka because this wasn't her will. 2 years ago, on September 23, 2015, Zalka and I had an accident on our way home from research activities in Boston. Thankfully, Zalka and I were not injured at that time and we only had treatment for 1 day and then returned to Indonesia. But after 2 weeks, Zalka began to feel that there were side effects from the collision during the accident and it turned out that Zalka had a concussion that was detected too late. In the end Zalka returned to Boston to check on her condition again and I accompanied his to Boston. And it turns out that Zalka started to drop his condition until finally his family came. I intended to tell you from the beginning but Zalka kept forbidding me to tell anyone so you wouldn't worry because he was optimistic that he would come back again. On his birthday he wasn't in very good condition but he insisted on video calling with the person he loved for a long time. In the morning his condition dropped again and Zalka had a critical period for 2 months and finally he was in a coma for 1 year. In early 2016 her family decided to sell their house and move to Boston,” his explanation was interrupted because Nancy started crying which made me unable to hold back tears.

We were crying and I was just trying to listen well and trying to stay strong to listen to the end. I hope there is a good ending later.

"I'm really sorry Lin, I know you should have told you even though Zalka forbade it," he added.

"Then how are things after that?" I asked.

"After being in a coma for 1 year, he finally realized, but his physical body became weak and he lost his memory for a while. But he still remembers you, he survives and struggles with his weak physique while thinking about you Alinaa and he always says to himself “Be patient, come on, be strong and recover quickly so you can meet Alina. It's okay if he hates me, it's enough that I love him "every day he says that even a day doesn't count," she added again but was stopped by me.

I don't know why I started to feel bad and my hunch said it would hurt but I was so hurt to hear the words he always said. Nancy is trying to calm me it seems she knows what I'm feeling.

“I continue ok. 1 month he had completely recovered and was ready to return to Indonesia, but fate said otherwise d-3 when he returned his condition started to drop again and it took him to heaven. I'm really sorry I'm just telling you now, it took me 2 months to be able to tell you everything without missing anything. He is now resting peacefully without pain in Oslo, because the distance does not allow him to bring him to Indonesia. Before his condition worsened until he lost consciousness, he had a message for you that he hoped you wouldn't be angry with him because he left without news, he also promised that this would be the last time he disappeared without news. Then if you really hate him, he hopes you can meet someone who loves you more than him. And his parents left a message that they also apologized to you if they or Zalka had a mistake with you and they hope that you can fully forgive Zalka and be happy," he continued, which finally broke my tears.

I cried so hard while hugging my mom, I was so sorry because I didn't know Zalka earlier. My feelings for him disappeared because now I miss him so much.

*****

One week had passed since Nancy came. For 1 week I braced myself and ventured to fly to Oslo to meet Zalka Muhammad Revaldy the man I love, my first lover as well as my first love. I will end my first love story by seeing him one last time. My mom and dad allowed me to visit Zalka with my best friend Fanny. Last week, Nancy provided the address of Zalka's parents and the location of Zalka's resting place.

Fanny and I first visited Zalka's family to express our condolences and also my apologies for not knowing his condition all this time. Then lastly we visited a great man who fought for his life until his last breath.

“My dear Zalka, it's me Alina. Sorry I'm late here, I'm not angry with you and never I don't remember or don't love you. I'm sorry that I couldn't be with you during this very difficult time for you. Honey, I thank you for all the love and effort you give me. I just want you to know that I love you so much more than you know. I am happy every time we are together. Kaaa now I have permission to say goodbye, sorry I have to let you go now. I will move on with my life and will not waste the effort you put in before you finally rest forever.”

“Zalka Muhammad Revaldy thanks for all your love and effort. Dear, nice to know you and I'm happy to love you. Now, rest in peace and goodbye.”

THE END